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Musta tuntuu, etten ole pitkään aikaan ollut aktiivinen oikein missään mediassa ja vielä vähemmän täällä blogin puolella. Jotenkin mua on vaan alkanut ahdistaa kaikki somet sillä lailla, etten tiedä mitä pitäisi milloinkin jakaa minnekin, kun on niin monta alustaa. En vaan osaa päättää mikä niistä on se mulle kivoin, kun joskus mun kuitenkin tekee mieli jakaa jotain. Ideoita eri projekteille on jo valmiiksi listattuna! Se rohkeus on vielä jossain hukassa. Haluaisin jopa lähteä kokeilemaan Youtubea alustana, mutta mun pitäisi saada esiintymisjännitys ensin kuriin. Voisihan sitä kokeilla rykäistä oikein kunnolla ja vaan tehdä jännityksestä huolimatta. Koulun osalta en ole kertonut vielä mihinkään mitään ellei vinkkejä lasketa. Olen siis edelleen täällä Vaasassa, minne muutin opiskelemaan japanologiaa. Olin silloin muuttaessani niin innoissani ja varma, että tästä koulusta haluan paperit ja sitten voisin miettiä uudelleen minne jatkan. Nyt on kuitenkin sellainen tilanne, että kandin tut...

 Heips! Nyt on taas se aika vuodesta kun syksy taas lähestyy ja jälleen kerran monelle on epävarmaa mistä jännästä sitä itsensä löytääkään. Uudet koulut alkaa, jotkut jatkaa samassa - myös minä ja joillekkin se on välivuoden paikka, ehkä jotain täysin muuta. Itselleni Vaasaan muutto tapahtui niin nopeasti, että vieläkin tulee toisinaan ihmeteltyä kuinka kaikki järjestyikään niin äkkiä. Onneksi se ei sentään ollut ensimmäinen muuttoni, sillä toissa keväänä oli niin paljon kaikenlaista muutakin härdelliä, että sain itkeä ja nauraa vuoron perään. Haluaisinkin tsempata nyt kaikkia niitä joilla on hankaluuksia - olivat ne sitten koulussa, kotona, tulevaisuushuolia tai jopa kaikkia sekaisin niin paljon, ettei millään enää jaksaisi - jatkakaa täysillä eteenpäin! Pyrkikää etsimään sitä omaa juttua, minkä eteen on valmis näkemään vaivaa. Se ei välttämättä ole helppoa, koska esimerkiksi omalla kohdallani kukaan ei osannut neuvoa minua suuntaan eikä toiseen ja etsin kaiken tiedon itse. Ja ...

Honestly saying I have never been that big of a fan of Halloween and all that scary stuff. At some point in the past I was really into cute-creepy fashion such as pastel goth and I still like creepy doll -look kind of things for some unknown reason but that's all about me liking creepy stuff. Even some lame horror movies are too scary for me to watch. Especially alone without weeks full of nightmares after that. I'm such a paranoid way too easily. In my opinion this world is a scary enough place by itself so why make it worse.      However this year I actually tried to take more fun out of this loved halloween event (as small of a thing as it is in Finland, compared to America). I bought some stockings that glow in the dark and threw everything from white paint to glitter glue on my face to be in a perfect condition to scare people on the streets. Hoho not really, but two k...

Awake too late at night lately? Yup, totally me. Still haven't returned to my usual sleeping habits that got messed up because I studied for tests. Maybe it's just me but it's funny how easily things change. I'm not saying that every change is a bad one but I can't help wondering if all those things in the past and future will continue to run like a sand through my fingers. Nothing can be trusted. I hate it when promises aren't kept. If you can't keep a promise, don't make one in the first place or that is just going to hurt people. (argh)    A little bit of calligraphy practicing at school There is so much to do and so much work to finish but I'm doing nothing but thinking too much. First exams in FKF are done - finally over. I should be writing some job applications. I should do everything to make moving to a next apartment possible. Because hey, I'm finally moving to an apartment that can hopefully be called home. But I lack of ...

Well today (or actually yesterday) this whole japanology studying process has finally began! I was less nervous about the first day than I could have been because I had already got to know two of my new classmates. We found each other from internet through our blogs and already met many times before our school even started. Today I had a nice slow morning and ended up having to hurry up a little bit. I met with one of these new friends and we walked together to school. At first all of us new students gathered to our classroom at 1pm. Some of us seemed to have some trouble finding the right place just like I had at the first time with my mom. That wasn't a suprize because at least Google maps doesn't have any idea where our school actually is. FKF has three school buildings in a row near the church. The main building has "Fria Kristliga Folkhögskolan" written on it. As usually on the first day we went through bunch of introductions from our teacher, principl...

Last month I recieved a letter of acceptance from FKF (Fria Kristliga Folkhögskolan) to study japanology in Vaasa!!! Great, wonderful, scary, cool,....everything is a mess in my head. Too much stuff to think about right now. But_I'm extremely happy and excited! The day before yesterday I had a trip to Vaasa with my mom to check out the city and of course the apartment offered to me. Vaasa is so far away from my home I have barely even visited there before. Honestly I do not even remember if I have been there at all before. It's not a first time I find myself from a situation where I'm moving to a new city without even knowing what kind of city it is, haha. :D I really wanted to get an apartment where I could be alone but unfortunately there were only shared apartments available so this is going to be my home for a while at least. First impression of Vaasa was "it's so cold here but beautiful buildings!". I really like that Vaasa is located in ...